It’s my day (night, actually) off. Baby Matthew is sleeping and while I should be sleeping too, I can’t seem to fall back asleep after he woke up to feed. It’s ok. I love motherhood and wouldn’t change it for anything. I feel so,…blessed. There are so many things I wanted in my life and now that I have Matthew, none of the other stuff really matters. Would it be nice to have? Sure. Our own home (currently living with my mother as she’s really one of the few people I trust to watch Matthew for me while I work), a new car, a new job,…(yes,…not going into details about that). But every time I see Matthew’s cute little face with chubby cheeks and crooked smile with light in his eyes,…nothing else matters. It honestly, really doesn’t.
Tomorrow, I need to see about getting his pictures taken for Christmas. With my job schedule, it’s so hard to do it during the day just because that’s typically when I’m home watching him and trying to get naps in. If it comes down to it, I might just have to take his pictures myself. To be honest, that’s not a bad idea. I have a Canon film and digital camera (I prefer film :P) which I can use to take his pictures, but the whole Christmas setting? Hmm,…not at my moms this year. We might put up a tree but nothing like how my sister is all decked out for Christmas. I might just break into her house to take his pictures, ha.
Matthew is talking (baby gibberish, haha). He’s just 3 months and I swear, sometimes I think he’s arguing with me (just like his dad, :P). He had his first set of vaccines last month and next month, he’s getting his 4 month shots,… Last time, I wanted to punch the nurse in the face for making him cry. Yeah, I know. Babies cry when they get their vaccines because it hurts but the nurse could have been a little more gentle if you ask me. >:|
I do miss Phoenix though,…being a family,…I think that’s what is keeping me depressed. Matthew and I being here while his dad is over there,…but we gotta do what we gotta do and hopefully, this long distance thing will pay off and the wait will be worth it.